FHE "Mom"

All last semester I did not ever go to FHE...it was not my thing and apparently I was too cool for it, so my bishop must have heard that because this semester I got called as the FHE "mom" and now it frustrates me when people do not come because they have better things to do, so lesson learned, I understand.  Sometimes you go to activities whether they are beneficial for you or not, because it will support the person who has planned the activity.  A good analogy is being on a sport team, if you have 15 people on a team to make practice beneficial they all need to show up, even if they are professional players they still all show up to practice, because drills could not be as good without everyone there if only 2 or 3 showed up so go to activities whether you like them or not and support with a good attitude=) But tonight I am in charge of activity, so this is a shout out to my momma for the great idea.  "Don't Eat Ernie"...because we would be sad to eat Pete because there is a pete in our family=) also I realize I spelled Ernie wrong =)

Visit =)

This weekend I was lucky enough to have shaquille and his friend come up from Provo and visit me.  It was so much fun! I showed him the wonders of Idaho, and after that 10 minutes we just enjoyed each other's company ;) No I am just kidding, Idaho is beautiful in its own way.  I took them to the sand dunes and unfortunately forgot my camera, but they loved it.  IT is amazing out there, so quite and beautiful then we went to the haunted mill.  My voice is hoarse today because of so much screaming, it was scary,  the owners achieved their goal. Then today they went to church with us and we took a few pictures.  I was really happy that they got to come out here.  Idaho is a special place, and I love it here, I really would not want to be anywhere else....but we will see if I am still saying that come November =).

Field Trip

Today I had a field trip for my Science 202 Class-Natural Disasters.  I must say that I like field trips back in elementary school much better than in college.  One they were during school and two I had all my friends with me and three they were in Georgia where it was not freezing cold.  But it was interesting we went to different places that natural events or disasters occurred.  And I use the word event to explain that it isn't a disaster unless people are around. Something that was also fun, was that I got see the many colors of fall...well sort of, Idaho decided this year to skip right over that season, so in one of my pictures I am walking and on the ground there is a picture of fall leaves on the left and on the right is snow.  It seemed to fit perfect how fall came and went to fast that winter was just on the other side of things.  Our last stop was at Mesa Falls, they are beautiful.  It is amazing how water is so powerful in situations. But it was beautiful and overall I had a good day.

Sweats

Well today I bought my new pair of surgery sweats, they are burgundy with a BYU-Idaho logo, which gave me an excuse to by a new pair of sweatpants, because ever since the first surgery I have always had new sweatpants to lounge in, because honestly the clothes I come home in-I stay in for at least a week...gross...But thats ok, because these ones are extremely comfy and so that is all that matters=)

Also here is Ayla and me, just being us, because we love eachother because we are great friends!

 And lastly, excuse the flash, but this picture is for momma, here is me on the first day of school.  Sophomore in college=)

To Papa:

This post is dedicated to Papa Barnes.  Well I heard that you liked everyone's blog except mine because I hadn't posted in a while, but now this one is solely for you and to catch you up on my comings and goings.  It is a little surreal to be a sophomore in college.  I remember being a sophomore in high school and thinking then that I was "something", my how time flies.  But school started.  I can honestly say this is going to be my least favorite semester, not because of where I am but more of what classes I am taking.  I am trying to finish my foundation classes, so I have two sciences, one international, one religion, and one English, all of which are foundations.  I am taking only one core class and I love it, reminding me every day I have class that I have chosen the right career for me.  I am working on my associates with a major in Generals and a cluster in Nutrition since BYU-Idaho does not have nutrition as a major here, which is sad, because I love it up here.  But I would rather pursue my career than stay in a place that I like, I can always re-adapt.  Well my social life is just like it has always been.  It consists of jumping from one soccer game to the next, I try to not take part, because of my knee, but I can't help to not play at all, so Ill juggle or pass lightly with some friends.  Coaching is going really good.  The boys may not think I know what I am doing, but they will learn that I know what I am doing and I am right.  And if they don't learn that, they can run.  Na, I'm just kidding I am not that harsh, but I do enjoy it because I can say that soccer is something that I am the most comfortable in, I learn new things every day, but know enough to have productive practices.  I was telling Ayla the other day that if they had a major in soccer I would make a 4.0 always. =)  Let me see, dating scene is fine, no one has made an impression on me enough to want to pursue, but that is OK, I am only 20...which in "world" years is young but in "Mormon years" I am almost out of my prime years, so no worries I am working on getting married ;)  Just kidding, I am in no hurry....through all my years of surgeries I have learned to not plan really, so what happens happens when it is meant to happen.  So I live life carefree with a short outline of what I want to happen next, but with lots of  extra room for change.  Well, I hope this post will suffice until my next post, and I will try to write each week, mom told me it would be a good Sunday activity, so perhaps I will do just that.  But I love you both, Papa and Grandmother, hope to see you soon.  Also I will be sure to take pictures at every opportunity I can to make sure you get to look at pictures too=)

Lesson Learned

I was not going to write a blog on this, but in a couple of years, I think it'll be helpful to me to come back and reread this.
I am sad.  I really don't want to go through surgery again, I don't want to go through recovery again, I don't want to limp around again, I don't want to have to work my way through walking, jogging, to running, and to finally cutting and playing soccer again.  I am tired of it-and it makes me sad.  This time I am trying to be positive again, but all I really want to do is play soccer at my level and to the best of my ability, I am tired of going "easy"when I play, I haven't been able to play the complete way I want to in a long time-its frustrating, and I wish so many things to be undone...

I am sad, and I am tired of it all-BUT
I am grateful for understanding parents, patient and loving parents
friends who comfort me while I am far from home
siblings who call and email me
that it isn't my ACL
that I  chose to coach instead of play, that I still get to be a part of soccer even if it isnt the active part that I wish I could
I have the gospel in my life to rely on
that I have a Heavenly Father who is there to comfort me when I am sad, and the knowledge that there is a lesson to be learned here and to not ask "why this is happening", but "what is there to learn"

I am sad, and instead of putting on a false smile and hiding behind it (like the previous three times) and relying on no one, I decided to just say it-I am sad, but I am grateful, not for the situation or the previous ones, but for the lessons that I will learn through all this.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hZFBl7xNXjc

Still in Limbo

I moved out of Drew's and Jessie's to a new location-Peter and Jill's, I have yet to live in my own place still. So I am still currently caught in Limbo.  This summer has been pretty unproductive...I haven't done anything really, except maybe read a couple of good books, one being "Divergent", but something that has been nice is spending a lot of time around family that I dont get to be around as much.  The first month I was with Etta, and let me say that that lady is the most social 77 year old I know, she is more social and outgoing than I am and I am a sophomore in college.   Then after numerous games of skipbo and 5 crowns I moved in with Drew, where I spent time throwing a frisbee, deciding what to eat for dinner, and calling doctors in Provo, American Fork and Saratoga Springs trying to finish all my appointments before I left for Idaho (which I did with a lot of persistence).  Now I am in Idaho with Peter, and enjoying my time with them.  Peter and I go on long walks in the morning while Jill works and then when Peter is gone Jill and I creep on facebook and watch movies. 

But even though I am more than ready to start my semester and move into my "own" place, I am having fun and enjoying my time doing "nothing".=)